I wanted to thank everyone for all of the prayers that we have received this past week. The prayers and sympathy cards have helped with the healing process and it has meant a lot to know that there are so many people out there who care for us and our family. It has been a very hard 10 days, especially with the extra hospital stay. In fact, the past 10 days have felt like 10 months!
We are trying to get back to our normal routine. Jim has gone back to work and Mom left on Wed. so during the day it has been me and the kids. I am starting to get more energy, especially in the morning but by nap time in the afternoon I am completely exhausted. Everyday I expect to have more and more energy. There were parts of today that felt normal again so I am taking that as a good sign. We did go to the funeral home and pick up Christian's remains. I was surprised that I didn't completely break down again, although I know that is anyone would have asked me how I felt while we were there I would have lost it again. It helped that Sophia and James were there and Sophia wanted to check out the whole place. Sophia and I kept pretty occupied with the coffee/hot chocolate machine while Jim took care of the business with the funeral home director (death certificates and so forth). That helped me a lot having Jim handle that part of it. We brought Christian home and if you ask Sophia where Baby Christian is, she will say "Up in Heaven". She is so sweet. I did call the church today to reschedule his memorial service. It will be next Sat. in the morning.
If you do want to hear a funny (kind of) story, I have one for you. When we got home, Sophia wanted to see Baby Christian's urn, which I had taken out of its velvet bag and had set down on the counter. Well, the funeral home had just sealed the top if it and the glue apparently takes several hours to dry. While I was showing Sophia the urn and explaining that this was Baby Christian's body, etc. she went to grab the urn...except she picked it up by the lid. The lid came flying off, along with strings of glue and the urn came down on the counter top. Luckily the urn came down up right and did not spill. I simply had to place the lid back on it but what a close call!!
The hospital did take some pictures of Christian for us to keep along with some keepsakes (the clothing they dressed him in, his blankets, a little teddy bear, etc). They also made us a hand print in plaster that turned out really well. I am posting a picture of his little hand because I think it is so little and sweet. If you do not want to see it, do not scroll down any more.
Sophia and James
James - 9 Months Old
Sophia - 2 Years Old
Sophia - 2 years old
